Wife to James Houser
My husband James and I welcomed our first baby boy, Kellen James Houser, into the world with a few weeks left in the off season. He got to be there for the birth and little while longer to help out and spend time with Kellen.
I had no idea how much work went into raising a baby and even with my husband's help we were barely getting any sleep! It seemed like there was no time in the day left for anything else. I remember thinking how am I ever going to do this alone? I was dreading the day he would leave me for spring training. It was just too much money to go with him this year and I would have to stay home by myself with a new baby.
Everyday leading up to him leaving I would pray he would find a way for us to go with him so I didn't have to do this by myself. But March 8th came and he left for the other coast. After he left I remember sitting on the couch holding Kellen thinking what do I do now? How am I ever going to change every diaper all by myself and get up during the night when he needed to be fed or just wants to be held? I thought to myself from now on until the end of the season I am going to pretty much be a single mom. How the heck do they do it all on their own!
I pretty much threw myself a pity party for the first few days. It wasn't fair that my husband gets to go be with his friends and do what he loves and I am stuck here raising a baby. (Don't get me wrong I absolutely LOVE my little guy and have never been happier, I just had a little resentment at first.) Then I realized I am NOT the only one going through this. There are many, many other wives with babies and multiple children that do this and are single moms for part of the year. If they can do it then I can too!
Things started to get a little easier and I started to get the hang of it. I am now ok being alone with Kellen and doing everything on my own. Its kind of empowering and makes me think if I can do this, what else can I do? I give so much credit to all the baseball wives raising children during baseball season. It takes a lot to be away from our husbands anyway, but with children it makes it that much harder. Just remember you are not the only one out there going through this and we are doing it for the success of our husbands and our families. Being a part-time single mom is worth it! :)